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[08 Sep 2004|09:38pm]


[07 Sep 2004|06:11am]

So I woke up at exactly 5a.m.
So that means I got a guestimation of 3hours of sleep.
My hair is still straight, going on 5 days..
So I got my reflex camera for photography –
which I must attend in one hour to the t.
For some reason my camera cord for el digital
is not working :/ and I'm all about the shins at 6:14a.m
And my allergies are eating my face!
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[05 Sep 2004|02:32pm]

“The education of little tree,” will just have to wait.
Same deal with washing my makeup from my face, brushing
my hair, and purchasing a camera for photography.
I’ve been so unmotivated lately, I wish I could figure
out why that is, or why suddenly I don’t care about anything.
I haven’t felt completely satisfied with myself in months
and that to me is frustrating to the core.
I take pictures in hopes of connecting with people, I enrolled
in photography class in hopes of meeting new people who shared the
same interest as me, but I sit sandwiched between two sophomores
who giggle and chit chat past me like I don’t even exist.COOL.
One girl who fake bakes so much she resembles a sweet potato pie
sits to my left, and a boy who brags about his football statistics and
breathes heavily from his nose sits to my right.
So once again, I am stuck in a stupid/awkward situation.
Sometimes I think I’m just like Charley from The Perks. I think,
to escape from reality, I think, in order to seclude myself from
participating in the real world i.e : Socializing and such.
I know I also write and read so much for those exact reasons.
But maybe I’ll take “Bill’s,” advice and start participating more.
Maybe, just maybe.
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new hair. [04 Sep 2004|02:47pm]

I haven't even lied in like, the past two days -

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12:48A.M [04 Sep 2004|12:49am]

My online boyfriend is cuter than yours.
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[03 Sep 2004|08:21pm]

I won’t complain about school, the end.
Hung out with N&M today it was fun.
We went out for lunch and drove around
pretty day #2 mother nature knows what's up.
We eventually hit up the dollar store.
They brought me back home and here I am.
AND tomorrow is Saturday.
ps. My room smells like Peach cobbler.
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[01 Sep 2004|05:13pm]

So I still want to liquefy like Alex Mac.
when I leave the photography room. Throughout
most of my day I hardly talk to anyone, I just
observe. I told my mom if they don’t fix my
schedule I am willing to attend my lil bro’s
private school, NO JOKE. UniformsWHATSUP. The end.
But besides that things are fine, just terribly fine.
And the sky was so blue today, I can almost taste fall
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[31 Aug 2004|10:29pm]

So my first day back was a joke.
MHS is one big joke, just like my classes.
The only thing that made my day was the
bowl of blueberry granola I ate for dinner.

[30 Aug 2004|06:02pm]
And I can still remember the summer's eve.

So summer is officially over (at least to me,)
starting 12a.m tonight. I’m not all that sad about it;
I think this was one of my best summers.
I met so many new people and had so much fun,
stayed out entirely to late and ate way too much
ice cream. I laughed as loud as I could and smiled
with my teeth when people took pictures. I took many
pictures, and worked a lot and made a lot of money.
I swang until I felt sick and talked until my throat ran dry.
I want to thank everyone whom contributed to my wonderful summer.
But before fall arrives everyone post their
favorite summer memory in a comment ASAP!%#^#

the end.
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[30 Aug 2004|12:40am]

The show was fun.
I met a lot of new people!!

aw, em took this, cute<3

Ew, no dice when it comes to enthusiasm.

the end.
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[28 Aug 2004|11:07pm]
playful misspellings.

My favorite t-shirt ever.
I wore it today while shopping, a
handful of people commented on it.
Did you graduate from Hogwarts,”
So what’s it like being a wizard,”
Is Malfoy really all that bad,” hah.

Finished all of my school shopping today.
Tomorrow is el show at el grange.
I bought so many fall clothes, hurry up.
I'm excited about the n.j trip, hurry up.
Dido for my b-day basssshhhhh.


Top 5 Things to Do
1. Swing
2. Listen to music
3. Go on walks during fall
4. Dance around my room to music
5. Write letters to people.

So who wants me to write them a letter?
(Minus Steve, because that is a given,)
Ps. I miss you already Steve :/<3

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[27 Aug 2004|07:53pm]

So my day consisted of a handful of nothing.
Up until about 5’o’clock when Mary and I saw
It was so amazing, too good for words.


Andrew Largeman : You know that point in your
life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't
really your home anymore? That idea of home is gone.
Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people
who miss the same imaginary place.


Zach Braff is brilliantandgorgeous.

I can’t wait to fall in love during autumn.

The end.Hallelujah
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[26 Aug 2004|10:56pm]

Saw Napolean Dynamite (finally,) with N&M, it was good.

Pedro : Who was that?
Napoleon Dynamite : Trisha.
Pedro : Who's she?
Napoleon Dynamite : My woman I'm taking to the dance.
Pedro : Did you draw her a picture?
Napoleon Dynamite : Heck yes I did.

My crush on Jon Heder still stands.


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you're the lotto I hit [25 Aug 2004|08:16pm]

And I have been feeling this good for a reason
My friends and my family
You are all the backbone
You keep me balenced and settled
And I'm in debt to you all endlessy
So tonight I will call you and try to say
"Thank you for being the sun on my face
I know the world's almost over but you
make it seem better and I hope for you I do the same,"
s.u.c - k.d
I wear beaded bracelets made by my friends on both wrists.
I have grown to adore my smile, although it is silly.
I haven’t kissed anyone in nearly three months.
I cannot wait until October/November.
Mary and I talk about how great fall will be, every single day.
And how nice it will be to swing/talk when it's chilly outside.
I have grown to learn seasons are just like people, unpredictable.
And I am the season of fall, so that makes me fantastic.
For now on I only want fall-friends.
the end.
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[25 Aug 2004|05:15pm]

$20 has gone up missing from my purse.
I return home from work only to find a $1bill
and some change living in my wallet.WTF.
The perpetrator, most likely my 13yr old bro.
I hate him4lyfe. I'll murder him at sunset.
The weekend needs to arrive via-NOW. okokok?
The End.
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[23 Aug 2004|10:06pm]

So Sunday we had AMAZING weather.
I hit up Battery Park with Mary and Lindsay.
We had a picnic and I took pictures and we
talked and reminisced and it was super cute.
I went back to their home and we rode bikes
to the near by park and swang on swings
and stayed up late making friendship bracelets
eating popcorn with no butter and watching movies.
I had an abundance of fun.
The end.

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[21 Aug 2004|11:04pm]

I still enjoy lip sinking to music while dancing in front of my mirror. I’m still Erica who can’t stop chewing her fingernails, who always feels the need to hide behind her insecurities and sarcasm. But somehow I feel different now, recently. Maybe it’s the whole “I’m completely over Erik and I understand I’m better off without attempting to pursue relationships because I’m fine with being alone forever until the day I turn 28,” persona I am currently sporting. Or maybe it’s just the moons on mars gravitational pulls making me almost believe that there isn’t any use in being sad while you’re single because eventually someone will walk into your life and make you forget about all of that emptiness that you had felt before. So for now I should just focus on being me and the words awesome and improvident follow right after my last name. But nobody likes the girl who attempts to go all physiological about love in her livejournal, so I’m not going to be that girl anymore, and I’m going to go back to painting my nails while listening to frou frou.

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[21 Aug 2004|07:40pm]

NEW S/N : lovenotedispatch


this saturday feels like a sunday.

and tomorrow is sunday.

how lameeeee.
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[21 Aug 2004|06:13am]

The party at sachi's was crazysexycool.
Left Behind & El Toro played very well.
There was no a.c but I had a lot of fun.
The end.

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MUSIC [18 Aug 2004|11:21pm]

Opening song: Paulson - Diaryland
Waking up: Dieradioride - New england sunrise
First date: Bobby Pickett - MONSTER MASH
First kiss: Frou Frou - Must be dreaming
Falling in love: The Beatles - I wanna hold your hand
Seeing an old love: Death Cab for cutie - Lightness
Heartbreak: Sondre Lerche - Things you call fate
Driving fast: Underoath - 814 Stops Today
Getting ready to go out: Metric - Raw Sugar
Talking with friends: Copeland/Muse (any music really,)
Walking alone in the rain: LEAN BACK - terror squad
Running away from it all: Emery - diguising mistakes with goodbyes
Missing someone: Emery - FRACTIONS
Walking along the coast: Dashboard - color the coast (SHUT UP,)
Summer vacation: The Sundays - Summertime
Fighting with someone: Underoath - It's Dangerous Business Walking-
Being angry: Rilo Kiley - Jenny you're barely alive
Thinking back: Denali - Hold your breathe
Falling asleep: The Beatles - Strawberry fields forever
Closing song: Underoath - Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

I heard a voice through the dischord...Collapse )
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